SpiderWebbed - 02/21 November 2003 / part 2
Eeeee... self-medicating with hash and vodka to the max, just gonna go and have some food with Keith and Emma. +-+-+-plus, minus. It's Friday evening and my foot is almost back to normal, fucking strange considering I was in such pain from out of nowhere and only needed the stick for a few days limp. No limping now, just a few twinges. I started taking my medication again 'cos I'm thinking ahead to Xmas (No Xmas for Donkeys) 'cos it takes a while to kick in and I'm gonna need it come Xmas.
Ruth started fucking me about big style over last Xmas and New Year so I'm taking precautions to get thru. I'm going thru the side-effects of them at the mo, it takes a while to get thru them.
Shall I list them? Yes, ok. Got that Crystal Method Mix CD on you did for me. I don't have all these side-effects by the way. Plus minus. -+-+-+ Dry Mouth. Feeling sick (nausea) or being sick (vomiting). Upset stomach. Diarrhoea. Tremor (shaky feeling). Sweating. Changes in sex drive or function eg ejaculatory delay. Dizziness. Sleeplessness. Excessive sleepiness. Indegestion. Abdominal pain. Loss of appetite. Sudden wheeziness. Difficulty in breathing. Swelling. Rash or itching. A vague feeling of being unwell. Joint or muscle pain. Convulsions. Uncontrollable twitching, jerking or writhing movements. Mania/hypomania. Hallucinations. Abnormalities in liver function tests, jaundice, inflammation of the pancreas or liver. Liver failure. Effects associated with depression, such as :- anxiety, unable to sleep, crying, confusion, amnesia, skin rash and sensitivity to sunlight, agitation, aggression, tingling or numbness. Minus plus.
Fucking hell, taking these cunts are supposed to make you fucking better? So I've had my daily dose, two big lines of billy whizz, vodka and a big spliff, and billy is just starting to kick in. Lawks! Lummee! I get the tremor and the trembling quite bad but it's a bit like playing Russian Roulette with your body, kill or cure, death or Glory. Apocalypse Now. Tulips from Amsterdam. I like bananas, no bones, I smoke marijuana, gets me stoned. The Soft Boys. Chicken Lickin'. Nice Chicken. Drool and Dribble.
No food today.
I get sleeplessness and excessive sleepiness too and that's fucking weird. Working on the banjo, sussed a technique that I've been trying to get, could hear it but not get it, now I've got it, just need to work it up. Take The Red Pill, Take The Blue Pill. You Take The Red Pill And I Show You How Deep The Rabbit-Hole Goes. This Is Your Last Chance. Take The Red Pill, You Stay In Wonderland. Take The Blue Pill, The Story Ends, You Wake Up In Your Bed And Believe Whatever You Want To Believe. After This There Is No Turning Back. The Voices Of Kwahn.
Playing the little game of chasing the speed around my system with vodka, not to over-ride it but just give it a little tickle and just take a bit of the edge off Herr Toothgrinder. Then a little spliff to introduce a bit of centrifugal force into the equation. And another drop of vodka + orange, this billy is old but it's been kept in a fridge so it's still o.k., more than fucking ok. I'm off my tits. But it's the last of it for now and was only a bonus found in a fridge but shared as we do, what goes around comes around mate.
